I'm doing it all wrong!!!!

I'm stuffing it up.
Ahhh I know it.

"But honestly go with your own instincts"
"Trust your instincts babe"

Well.. I feel my insticts are saying "you're doing it wrong"!

Somethings changed. .  and I feel awkward when I hold him to feed. My milk has gone down to an all time low. He cries all the time when he's with me but if Dad is doing the feeding, playing, wrapping, putting him down he is just chill and does it with little to no fuss. I can't get the washing done because it's so cold that the washing starts to smells before it's dried. I feel I don't know when he's hungry anymore and it is taking me over an hour to settle him. My instincts tell me he's sick but still again. .  people just keep brushing my thoughts away.

He's now waking up through the night and no one can tell me why. He shouldn't be hungry if I'm dreamfeeding him right? I don't know. I just really wish that

--knock at the door--
.. "hello?"
"HI!"
"My name is Paige Pampry-Newson* and I am here to tell you all!"
"uhhhh..?"
"Don't say a word! All you need to say is the parenting style you want to take onboard and I can then help you achieve that! I understand that you are having trouble and are doubting yourself greatly about everything at the moment. I'll tell you when to do what and what will be the best way for you. . . . . . . . .



I just don't know what I'm doing anymore and I DON'T know who to talk to who can ACTUALLY help me with my parenting. .  I just. don't. know. .

* - acronym for New Age Mary Poppins ;)