Wednesday, 25 January 2012

Mister's Birthday!

Happy birthday to a man so lovely, caring and sweet.
He doesn't mind that I'm crazy - not neat!

I love you mister!

I hope that the new year ahead of you is bright and plentiful!

Love from M and little button!

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

20 Questions With... ME!

So I'm hoping to get back into full swing with my blog.. I have missed it. Life has just seemed to consume me and swallow me up - in a good way!

I will have a big clean up I'm hoping and focus on Twitter as much as I find myself wasting time on facebook and posting again at least twice a week.


In the meantime please check this blog out! Not only is it always interesting Dr Bron has just put up a post kindly with my answers to her 20 questions 'The Modern Family' - 20 Questions With Melissa Campbell!! Very much like the questions I am asked at school, more so when reliving in a new class. Although their questions seem to be a bit more errr random at times! Two of my favourites were

"Miss Campbell.. who's your favourite friend and do you like a special colour?"
"Miss Campbell.. do you have a boyfriend and does he buy you flowers?"

Colours and relationship status always seem to be an interest point.

The most thoughtful and smart question was from a 7 year old girl who asked why it was that I wanted to become a teacher. I had to stop myself from blabbing on. Too many reasons!


I'd also like to take this chance to say a huge thank you to those who were regular readers and commented where they felt inspired to! Hopefully you'll be back to join me in 2012!

Have a merry christmas everyone! I hope everybody has a happy and safe holidays whether they are bundled up by a fire and playing in the snow.. or having a barbeque down by the beach enjoying the sunshine! Rest up and stay out of trouble! :D

Monday, 12 September 2011

Still hasn't hit me..

As I sit here apart from my body aching and the fact I can't stop yawning it still doesn't feel like I just worked 8 hours! (I was kicked twice, hit in the face also twice and hair pulled all by the one boy :S) It also doesn't even feel like today a friend has been lost.. As I sat on the floor with kids all around me a friend informs me of another friends passing as the road decided to take her life last night.

I wish I'd never seen her facebook page.
My partner is friends with her and I deleted all my contacts a few months back now and hadn't gotten around to re-adding others who hadn't added me first. I wish I could write a comment to her like everyone else, one that will never really make it to her. I can hear her laugh, I can see her smile. I hate that I don't have the chance to be her 'friend'. I am so mad about it all. AUGH!

So this will be the comment that will never really make it to you darling girl..

As years pass and people's lives move on ours drifted apart. I quickly push the thought of how I hadn't really seen you all that much these last few years. I don't want that to be the way I last remember you. The distance. Still you and crazy (you know, in a good way) but I want to remember you as the friend who was always there for me, as you were for so, so, so many. You were so strong and always there to help people. I have often thought back to the times where we mucked around on journallive documenting our lives and silly dramas. I loved thinking back to the times we hung out under the carport for weeks on end on the old couches eating crappy junk food and sculling 3L of crisp apple juice and swearing we'd never drink it again. I love remembering dad's nicknames for you such as stiff-knee as he hobbled along and how he thought he was so funny, and we only laughed cause we were laughing at his silly stupidness. I remember the times I cried and you always were there with hugs and notes of encouragement. We got up to all bits of mischief. Our sleepovers. Our adventures.

All of the memories, all of our memories, I will hold them close to my heart x
Love you, you crazy woman!

I hope all these little messages reach you.. somehow.

Sunday, 11 September 2011

(paid) working woman, once again!

Although motherhood is a job with many rewards and one would say it's "pays" for itself over and above. This is true. Over worked and underpaid is sum it all up kinda motto.

I find myself in discussions often about how I'm finding motherhood and I it is surely hard work! I knew it was going to be but it's hard to explain to a non-mum! It's a different kind of hard.. a different kind of tired! It's harder than I thought and more demanding but I guess when you haven't really gown up around babies and experienced them hands on you're not really sure what to expect!! Very much like my midwife warned "I can't really prepare you for birth and what it's going to be like for you, you really just have to go through it to know!" I really think she was right!

Tomorrow though I'm (excitedly and nervously) going back to work for the first time. It's only part time, but I think it really is a thing to celebrate after not working for 8ish months! I'll be all ready before I go to bed early tonight. This will be the first time going to work with a bay, not only do I have to be prepared but i have to have the wee button prepared! I know a lot of the time you never know what's going to happen timewise when you have a baby, they always seem to set you back... most of the time an hour or so! Lunch is already made (just leftover dinner: pasta and orzo with pumpkin and silverbeet in a carbonara sauce yuummmm!) and bags are packed so all I need to do is the normal routine in the morning then I'm out the door!


Monday, 5 September 2011

Reviving the blog, a journey in itself!

Please bare with me as I begin the journey of bringing my blog back to life. I have now noticed some blog posts are missing and 90% of all the photo's have dissapeared!

The photo things was my own fault as I deleted an album on dear Google+ and didn't fully realise (kinda did) that it was linked to everything! SO thinking I was just deleting the 'flower' per se but I really pulled the whole fricking plant out of the ground!

Things should be back to normal in a while... Trust me to do something as 'blonde' as this! It's just a huge job... It put me off blogging for a long time as it looked so hideous. I had to scour my computer for the background image and blog header before posting again!

Thanks for your patience :P

Screw being a mum some days.

Today is one of those days.
I want to go to sleep and never wake up again.
The only problem is 'one of those days' keep turning into 'one of those weeks'..

Give it another week and it'll turn into one of those months.

Now when I say I want to sleep and never wake up again I don't really mean I want to die.. so don't try to read in between the lines here! I really am just so exhausted that my body and mind feels so weak. I don't even know how I'm bloody managing to carry on like this!

My little button is crying all the time! So many people say he's just teething or he's still getting over being sick but I really just don't thinks so.. Call it whatever you want but I think it's mothers intuition. He could be though. It's just like the blasted squeaking noise that comes irregularly from my car. I have no idea what's making that noise (it recently had a service and 2 warrant of fitnesses over the duration of 'the squeak') so I have no bloody clue what outfit to take it to to fix it. It's driving me mad and some days I worry it could be something serious.
In that aspect I'm stuck.

Just like 'the squeak' Im stuck with what to do with this broken little button. Last night he cried from 2am until 7am. On and off and in his sleep. Other nights I've had continual grizzling in his sleep making me lie there awake unable to sleep. I could go in another room but I don't want to if he's like this! I've tried co-sleeping 2 nights in a row and it made no difference apart from not having to get up to put in the dummy back in! I didn't want to do that for too long either because I don't want that to become a permanent want for him and then I'll be fighting to get him out of my bed forever more (maybe not but I don't want to run the risk) well, until I train him to be able to sleep on his own again.

I just don't know what to do and who to see to be able to help me..! I can't go to the Family centre to help with sleep cause they seemed to be fairly useless when it came to helping if they didn't see the problem happening right in front of them. He sleeps pretty good during the day. Just cries all between being up, might be happy for a little while maybe! It also doesn't help that when anyone else is around be it them, my mum.. his dad, my friends or whoever he seems to be okayish.

And he's sweaty.. He gets too hot, he sweats. Lately he's been a little bit sweaty/sticky feeling even if he's starting to get cold.

God I just don't know. Screw being a mum some days. They sure were right when they said it's the hardest job... like ever. Sometime I can feel myself turning a light shade of green when I think of those mums who have it all together and make motherhood look just as easy as breathing. But I know at the same time I wouldn't want it any other way.

On a more positive note it's a freaking gorgeous day! I'm inside and it's so hot I'm in a singlet and skirt... And it's only a ew days into spring. I always can never decide if I like summer or winter better...

-The snow
-Hearty warm dinners
-Snuggly nights in bed
-Better fashion (normally)
-Easier to warm up than cool down in most situations
-You can have really long hot showers

-The nice weather brings your mood up
-You don't have to wear as much
-The beach
-Summer treats like icecream
-Washing takes quicker to dry
- You don't (well I don't) get sick with colds and crap
-Christmas, my birthday etc etc etc

I really never can decide... until today.
I officially can say Summer is number one.
But Winter is a very close second.

Mount Ruapehu : NZ - 2008