I don't like to give up. . at all.

I'm not a 'quitter'. I hate giving up. Especially when I'm forced to or there's no other obvious option.

I'm afraid to say I'm going to give up breast-feeding.

I don't want to. If someone could say, hang on! Here, take this and your milk will be back to normal. .  I'd even be stoked with being engorged again. I can handle that! But what makes me sad is that I just have nothing. Well. .  I can do almost a whole feed first thing in the morning but I just feel maybe it's adding stress to everything. I mean who's to say I'm bad for stopping and turning to the bottle? I sure know there'd be a huge outcry at the breast-feeding society* and an angel would die because of my decision.. one for each breast** I can already hear them crying. . Oh wait that's just me.

I want to fix my milk supply so bad but nothing seems to work. It was at least not getting any worse (or better) for ages. .  so I had a decent something to give. I'd say I'm at 30% performance compared to the whole 150% I had the first few weeks of being a mum.

Maybe it's because I changed from demand feeding?
Maybe my body didn't like that.
Maybe it's because I  expressed and that put me off swing?
Maybe my body didn't like that.
Maybe I missed to many feeds over the course, and my body didn't like that.

It just sucks the cards I was dealt.
Why can't everyone just have the same stable amount throughout? I just don't feel ready to let go of it yet but I feel there isn't any other choice if it's possibly making things stressful, taking all energy I do have to create the little milk I do have. I don't like giving up. I know giving up doesn't make you a failure. . I just feel so crap about it all I feel like the milk coming out, that he's drinking, is just rubbish now :(

Why couldn't I be good at just ONE thing? Just one! If I can't get the sleeping and everything else to do with mothering right. .  why not just this?

What advice does anyone have regarding breast-feeding? Did you have a milk supply problem? Any tips for easing of breast-feeding in the most simple way. . What if I get mastitis? I don't know if I can let go. .  I can just see my self holding on to one last feed when my breasts are bursting at the seams. .  Advice???

Search "giving up" on google or something as an image search. Go on. Do it when you feel like you need to give up. You wont want to after. .  how encouraging!

"When the world says give up, hope whispers 'try it one more time..'"
"There is a difference between giving up, & knowing when you have had enough."

They just make me feel guilty. .  I know I shouldn't but I don't know what else to feel when I have to. .  Or do I not? Can someone please tell me?

* - fictional 
** - also a fictional idea