I don't know what to do. .
I need help. .
I don't know how much more clearly I can say it?!
I DON'T need a listening ear, or advice.
I DON'T need to be told over and over again I have depression for months.
I DON'T need to go to the family center.
I NEED help. With myself and baby.
I NEED support love and care.
God.. I NEED to eat.
Little button is waking every hour. I cant keep just feeding him and I can't keep going on how I am. He cries when I breast-feed him (boob in mouth still) as if he's in pain. He cries when I wrap him. He cries when I put him down to bed. He cries in his sleep. He cries when I put him to play. He cries all the time and it's because of something but I don't know what.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I NEED HELP.
Why doesn't he like me doing anything for him anymore?
Why does he keep crying?
Why do I feel like absolute crap?
I can't do this but I have no bloody choice.
I want to do this but have no strength, physically, emotionally. .
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I NEED HELP.
So many things are not helping either..
What I'd like most of all is my mum to be here.
All the time.
Ha. What a selfish big ask.
She's busy with work, which I know and totally understand.
Doesn't help my cellphone is broken so I can't even call her to talk. . (no landline)
But I just want my mum.
She'd make everything better.
She would march right in here and sort him out and sort me out too. .
That's partly what I need. . My mum.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I NEED HELP.
I don't know who to ask for help regarding little button.
The doctors are hard to find a time slot with the two doctors that are best.
If I go to the family centre they'll just make me feel crap (not intentionally at all) about my milk supply. Far It's not even worth me carrying on with feeding because he wont even take what I have left he just cries. They also will only see him through the day and it's the night that's the big problem. . actually it's all a problem.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I NEED HELP.
So here I am 'blog' and 'bloggers'.
What do I do?
Who do I go to?
Why am I being so crap and useless?
I NEED HELP.
and I'm serious.
Just incase you're still not picking up on it. .
anybody?
Oh hon. You know what I swear it's normal for this to happen. ALL of my girlfriends -- no exaggeration, have time where they feel like mush. They might just be like that for a day or one girlfriend felt so down she went to counseling to get help but they said she wasn't postnatally depressed like she thought and she was just having those normal mummy feelings. You'll be okay, do still seek advice maybe from a health professional about you and maybe get your little boy (little button - cute blog name!) to get a general check over form one of the doctors you do trust. I find they're more thorough! Good luck hon and let us all know how you go! xo
ReplyDeleteThanks you :) Really brightened my evening. Went and talked to the doctor as mum suggested and my partner wanted as he was so dearly concerned! But he said the exact same thing! Got to see my favourite docotr and wee bubby is on the mend now. Seems to be getting better more and more each day! YAY!
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